Happy Father's Day! You are so missed! Everyday.... Some days are worse than others.... It's been almost 2 years since you passed away and I hope it will get easier for all of us as time passes... -
I found this blog post from my sister on her Everyone's Connected Profile ( I hope she doesn't kill me for putting it here...?) She wrote this in August after he passed away in June.... It broke my heart when I read it... I just want her to be happy and not hurt.... I love you , Heb...
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Okay so around the time of my sophomore year in high school, I began thinking about where that I would go to college. I went to Memphis for the weekend around Christmas time and began talking to my cousin who told me that I should move there. I started thinking about it and the more I thought about it, the more I liked the idea. So I started praying about it and the more I prayed about it the more excited I got. I absolutely loved the church and the youth group is awesome. So as time progressed I talked to my pastor (my uncle) about it, my other uncle who is also a pastor, and they both thought that it would be better if I stayed at home. I really disagreed with both of them and proceeded with my plans. (all the time thinking that I knew better) So as I was planning everything and getting all my stuff together I really started praying about the whole thing. And this time I really started listening when I prayed. Just to make sure that I understood everything, I laid a fleece before the Lord. In August of 2005 I thought that my prayer had been answered. When everything fell through in about a week I knew that my answer was to move to Memphis. I was very excited. I was supposed to leave at the end of October early November. Well we had P.R.A.Y. Conference the last week of October and on Sunday we had just an awesome service. I was standing there praying when someone walked up to me and started praying with me. They told me that what that I had planned for my life was not what God had planned for my life. So in other words, DON”T MOVE TO MEMPHIS! Okay so I could handle that. I had gotten my answer in the form that I wanted. (Audibly) So that I could understand and not make a mistake that I would regret. Even though it had been put to me that way I still could not understand why that it was not right for me to move. Until around the end of June of this year did I understand one of the reasons why that it wasn’t right for me to go. I lost my dad on June 22, 2006. If I would have moved to Memphis I would not have gotten to spend the extra time with my dad. I wouldn’t have gotten to be here with him and I would have regretted that. Not that I would have regretted making the decision to move, not that it would have been a bad decision, I just wouldn’t have the memories that I have, had I have moved. I am so thankful that I stopped and listened. God answered my prayer, and even though I might not have liked the answer right then, it was still the best decision for my life.
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